Reflections

It’s the end of the year, a time when people look back and reevaluate what they have accomplished (or not accomplished) in the past 365 days in order to better plan and create goals for the next year. This is a good practice, because if one doesn’t see where they have come from and make plans as to where they want to end up, they could get lost along the way. To see where you want to go and make a plan, a path, is quite the feat. Some years I am better at making (and achieving) those goals, than other years.

But don’t get lost in the trap that reflection can become. As some begin looking back, the wishes and dreams of things not accomplished are also seen. And for some, like myself, the negative is more prevalent sometimes than any and all the good that was done. Don’t get lost in the trap! Will there be disappointments? Yes, but that is how we learn and grow. Do we want that told to us in the moment? No! But that is where reflection and seeing how God took those low points and crafted something beautiful out of them. And if you don’t see that beauty yet, that means you are in the middle of God’s creating!

In going forward, what are you goals for 2020?

Mine are pretty much the same:
-read more books
-exercise more
-worry less
-love more

Notice a theme? “More” or “less” of something. I tried completely wiping out carbs or aiming  to “only” eat this or that. It doesn’t work like that (at least for me). I am not one who can cold turkey start or stop something. But that’s what is great about a new year. You don’t have too! You can start slow by just trying to do “more” or “less” of something everyday.

A new resolution: to write more here about the books I finish. In 2019, I read 50 books, many of those smaller than I’m used to, but they are longer series. I found that sometimes a smaller book is good for the soul. And I also rediscovered that I love making family trees of the characters within these interconnecting novels. But in looking back, I don't think I wrote about a single one! It doesn't really matter because I know there are not many of you out there actually reading this. And that's okay. It's more for me to sit back and reflect on the books I've read. To take a moment and savor. Enjoy.

That's what I want to do more. Enjoy. To have JOY.

It’s a new decade, a new year, and maybe for some, a time for a new point of view. Maybe this is the year you start working out more. Maybe this is the year you spent less time on social media.  Maybe this year you start that new venture or hobby you’ve been dying to try. Whatever you decide, remember, God is there with you in the good and the bad. “He will never leave you, nor forsake you.” (Deuteronomy 31:6).  Take courage! This new year - God already knows the outcome. How reassuring is that?

Finding your voice

I just finished the most recent publication of Rebecca Connelly’s, a new favorite author who I seem to consume her books faster than she can publish them, called Spinster and Spice. This third enstallment of the Spinster Chronicles centers around “sweet little Izzy”, the one whom everyone takes advantage of because she never causes a fuss. She learns how to find her voice in this novel, and I am reminded to find my own voice as well. I tend to respond like Izzy, be more passive and peacemaker, than bold and opinionated. There is a balance between the two, and I think it’s something we all need to find.

 My recommendation is to go out and read a Spinster and Spice!
 (Maybe read the first two first, because that just makes sense!)

Familiar Connections: Gaining Confidence through Weakness

Have you ever read a book and found some connection with the settings, person, or feeling? Does that connection help you better engage with the book? I always find that I pay attention more when that phenomenon happens to me. But when multiple happen in the same book, I start to wonder, “God, what you are telling me?” In the case of my current book, To Honor and Trust by Tracie Peterson and Judith Miller, the male character’s career hits close to home for me, one of the locations is in my home state, and I can relate to the female character’s desire for truth and trustworthiness in others due to a past heartache. My ears are alert, “What lesson should I learn from this book, God?”

The male lead, Wesley, is a 25 year old doctor, and my own brother (not named Wesley as that would be too coincidental) is 26 and currently in his second year in medical school. While Wesley is fictional, I feel that I understand some of his background just through my knowledge of what my own brother has experienced. For example, Wesley comes across as very knowledgeable in areas not only related to medicine. I might not think much of that as he is fictional, but over the last 17 months my own brother comes home on breaks more knowledgeable than the last time I saw him. I talked to him about this over Christmas Break and he told me that medical school is hard (duh, I already knew that) but that he had had to develop a sense of confidence and self-awareness about what he knows and how he knows it. I had always seen my brother as a confident person, even before medical school; but since going, he has become even more so. I didn’t realize that under that layer of self-confidence actually laid a layer of uncertainty. He had to develop this “thicker skin” so to speak in order to study and perform his duties.

 Amazing, I had never thought about confidence in such a way. That a person might first have to become aware of their failings and weakness before they could become strong. The Bible confirms this in Paul’s writing in 2 Corinthians 12:9-10,  “But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christʼs power may rest on me. That is why, for Christʼs sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.’” (https://www.bible.com/111/2co.12.10.niv) Growing up, I just assumed this was in reference to physical strength or in areas of faith; but now that I am older, and facing other challenges in life, I can see that in ANY situation, before we can become confident we need must first be weak. It is through this weakness, this trial, that we learn to become better, stronger, CONFIDENT.

Modern Mrs. Darcy Challenge 2019

I’ve been silent for a while, but that doesn’t mean I’ve stopped reading. On the contrary, I’ve read more books in the past two years, and I am now finally digging my way out of all my series and novels that I had laying on my shelves.

One of my New Years resolutions was to join a book group that uses a checklist called the Modern Mrs. Darcy Challenge to expand their reading library. Each criteria is a book to read for each of the 12 months this year. It’s  only the end of January, but I’m able to check off 2 categories (totally 4 books). I am having a blast with this challenge. If you love books as well, I hope you’ll join me!